Missing Mom

11008444_10152901125277097_3512386070243659924_nWhat a blessing to spend my mother’s last days at her bedside.

And what a bittersweet moment to witness her taking her last breath. Holding her hand. Looking into her eyes.

She was surrounded by her three daughters and other family members. Though our shoulders shook with sadness, we were relieved that she was no longer suffering. She was a treasure and a true joy to the very end. We’re missing Mom but thankful for one who modeled compassion, love and family devotion.

So, how does this fit with Speaking of the Grandchildren? Well, as I had posted earlier, we all grieve, remember, reminisce in different ways. As a friend commented when she lost a parent, we all lost a dear one, but only I have my story.

My children — her grandchildren — will remember and honor her memory in different ways.

And my grandchildren are still not quite sure what happened.

My daughter-in-law and her son created a lovely whale watercolor that he is certain she will enjoy even from Heaven.

Our daughter’s oldest son was in Cincinnati at the time of his great-grandmother’s death, but he had not seen her yet. He was sooo excited to travel to Ohio because he knew he would see her, but it almost seemed cruel to have him remember her as she was at the end. A day after they arrived, before a visit, she died. When Jeanne tried to explain to him that great-gramma had gone away, his initial reaction: “But Mama, why didn’t she tell me she’d go away? I wanted to give her flowers.”

I wish I had a picture of the three little boys at the gravesite wearing matching shirts that their great-gramma had sent them. I look forward to the days when they share memories of her with me.

It’s good to be more settled in our American home before returning to Ukraine next month. And I plan to get PLENTY of grandchildren time between now and then.

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  1. Joyce says:

    I am so sorry for the sadness and emptiness you are feeling now. But this dear lady will always be your mom. She will see those little guys in their shirts and watch over all of you until the time comes when, for eternity, you will be reunited in a place “without sorrow or tears!”

  2. Grandma Kc says:

    There are no words that can make it any better but I am so sorry for your loss and pain. I’m glad that at least you get to spend lots of time with the grandchildren while you are here. Bet they love that part, too! Enjoy them.

    • Marianna Peipon says:

      There IS something nice about not being on alert to pick up and leave at a moment’s notice…we can now PLAN time with the grandchildren. Yes, we are LOVING that aspect of it all. Thanks for your words.

  3. Joan says:

    The days you spent with your mom are precious and will remain in your memory a lifetime. You were blessed to spend her last days with her…as she was blessed having her sweet girls with her. God gave each of you peace in those last days, and her eyes said it all to everyone. She was loved.

  4. Chris Malone says:

    What a gift that you were all together as she passed. We love you and are so sorry for the pain that the loss creates. Psalm 91.

    • Marianna Peipon says:

      Thanks for the comment, Chris. I know your family prays for us and vice versa…thankful for those prayers. Comforting to know where she is (hallelujah!) and that we will all be together again. Looking forward to my friends around the world meeting her one day!!

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